WEDNESDAY, 16 MARCH 2011
This time, the words (passed surface doorway light place house) were suggested by @OliverMantel, from Twitter. Hello, Oliver.
It came out pretty dark, which wasn’t inherent in the words, so it must be me.
She seemed to see a shadow as she passed:
A ghostly face in each reflective surface,
A silhouetted figure in the doorway.
She hurried onward in the fading light,
feeling the chilling malice of the place,
she longed to get away from the old house.
She’d felt she ought to see her childhood house
Because well over 80 years had passed
Since anyone had occupied the place,
She had imagined dust on every surface
Her mind’s eye casting a nostalgic light,
The evening sunbeams streaming through the doorway
These thoughts had opened up a sort of doorway
Inside her head. She’d giggled with delight
Remembering the joy in her old house
Before the night her loving mother passed
Away, and though he seemed fine on the surface
Her father somehow never found his place
But yes, the house had been a happy place
The memories came flooding through the doorway
She and her brother, skidding on a surface
Of polished wood, that velvet tasselled light-
Shade that she’d stroke each time she passed,
The marble dog that stood before the house
So thinking that she’d like to see the house,
(And maybe tidy round the dear old place
Put ghosts to bed and exorcise the past)
She knew as soon as she could see the doorway
Which seemed to glow with some unearthly light
That those horrific memories would surface
The spattered blood she’d found on every surface
The awful silence filling up the house
Her baby brother, lying in the light
Of evening sunbeams, when she’d found the place
Her father’d strung himself up in the doorway
His last attempt to uncreate the past.
The house is old, and as the horrors surface
She leaves the past behind, enters the light.
Deserts that place, and passes through the doorway.
Anyone (most people I’ve met) who has become embroiled with me in an argument about gender and sexuality can blame, or rather credit, Kate’s work for challenging, inspiring and politicising me into the gobby, queer, poke-gender-binary-with-a-stick-and-see-what-happens feminist/heretic you see before you today.
And I’m absolutely not going to go all high pitched and swoony about the fact that she has on occasion, tweeted me. Or that today’s (extra) sestina’s keywords were suggested by her.
Happy belated birthday, Kate. A soppy romance from one Piscean to another.
(SQUEEEEEE! *thud*)
You took my hand and led me to the green
And purple of the moorland. It seemed endless
You said ‘I come here when the world goes mad
The birds and flowers give me sanctuary’
And at the time I thought you rather silly
And wondered when on earth we’d get to fuck
I felt it was a given that we’d fuck:
Why would you bring me out into the green,
away from all the crowds and from the silly
Gossips whose insinuations endless-
Ly upset you and disturbed your sanctuary
If not to fuck? I thought you must be mad.
But still, there seemed no point in getting mad
I mean, you seemed to like me. How the fuck
Did that happen? I’d searched for sanctuary
In love before but only found the Green-
Eyed Monster, and the tears and endless
Arguments just left me feeling silly.
But then you came, and never called me silly
And what my other lovers saw as mad-
Ness, you referred to as my endless
Store of creativity. I loved to fuck.
As much as you loved walking in the green,
Wild, open spaces, seeking sanctuary
I’d never thought that you’d need sanctuary
You always seemed so calm, while I was silly
You told me that you tried to hold the green
Inside yourself to keep from going mad
When dealing with the daily awful fuck-
Ing tragedies that, sometimes, seemed so endless
I’d always tried to push away the endless
Sadness in me; not by seeking sanctuary
Instead, distraction. Dancing, drinking, fuck-
Ing till I felt carefree and silly.
But inside I was slowly going mad
Till you showed me the peace in hills of green
And when we fucked, I knew our love was endless.
Just like the green that is our sanctuary.
And being silly stops us going mad.