#100peoplepoems part 11: Carl

Posting this in the line to board the flight from Toronto: thanks for having us, Carl!

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Imagine a child with a game

He has had a few months:

The novelty hasn’t worn off

But he’s good at it now.

And when cousins come in for a visit 

He just wants to share.

To explain how that bit fits in there

You can win if you save all the cards with a star

If you’re quicker than him on the draw.

It’s his game

But he wants everybody to share

 In the unbridled joy

That he feels every day.

With the game that he just loves to play…

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That’s Carl with Toronto.

He knows all the cheats

The cool little streets, 

The places to eat,

The space travel themed vegan treats…

He’ll show you the way.

Come and play.

#100peoplepoems part ten: Kellian Dawn

It’s a bit of a cheat this one…

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The morning was cold and the playground was grey

I stood there alone on my very first day.

When I first was the target of withering scorn

From the scourge of the infant school: Kellian Dawn.

She called me a tomboy and pulled off my hat

Said my bum matched my face and my tummy was fat

I started to wish I had never been born

As I quaked at the mercy of Kellian Dawn

But the next day she hugged me and let me play too 

We were hairdressers, nurses, then went to the zoo

By the end of First Playtime my fealty was sworn

To my friend and my role model Kellian Dawn

When at Afternoon Playtime I ran to her side

She pinched me and pulled on my curls till I cried 

And I ran away sobbing, confused and forlorn 

At the fickle affections of Kellian Dawn

When you start going to school education begins

By day three, I’d discovered identical twins.

But I never did find any way to forewarn

Who was nice, who was mean out of Kelly and Dawn.

#100peoplepoems part nine: Nadiya

This is a poem about Great British Bake Off winner Nadiya Hussain. 

You’re so unremittingly nice.

As sweet as a clementine cod

Dispensing your baking advice

And loving Islam and your God.

You’re so unremittingly nice

You never get grumpy or crabby

Positivity shines from your eyes

You’re the BBC’s favourite hijabi.

But I wonder how much of it’s real:

If you’re doing this under advice

How much external pressure you feel

To be so unremittingly nice.

 It’s not that your smile is a guise

That you’re sinister, evil or scary

Being so unremittingly nice

Just to charm Mel and Sue, Paul and Mary

It’s the toxic and poisonous lies 

About Muslims that come from the press

Being so unremittingly nice 

 Ms Hussain, does it ever cause stress?

I just wish that sometimes you could take,

Though you’re clever, you’re kind and you’re wise,

A well deserved, bad tempered break

From being so unremittingly nice.

#100peoplepoems part eight: Chella

This poem is for my wife, on her birthday.

It’s also a hint about her present.

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I wanted to give you the sky.

You’ve looked at it longingly so many times.

Face pressed to the window

Eyes shining, expression sublime

I wanted to hang the glittering 

Things always catching your eye.

Around your neck.

Hand you the moon 

On a stick.

You make friends so easily.

I hang back, at a loss for what to say

While a waitress hugs you, near tears.

And an old man 

Tells you all about his love 

Of lighthouses.

A two year old takes your hand to show you his favourite toy

A teenager whispers her fears.

Even the planets and stars

Tell you their secrets

On clear nights.

Suddenly, out on the street,

You’re calling  the names

Of your friends far away:

“Jupiter! Sirius! Mars!

Look, it’s Orion again!”

We wave to the ISS, 

(You always know where it’s likely to be)

You relish the absolute dark

That calls down the Milky Way.

I never know just what to say

You can make friends with nebulae. I

Hang back, hiding under a cloud. 

Earthbound and shy.

But here: look through the lens;

Point it out of the window upstairs, 

Introduce me to all of your friends.

And know that I wanted to give you the sky.

But I couldn’t, of course:

We both know

It was already yours.

 

#100peoplepoems seven: Uncle Norman

It’s Cemetery Sunday. So, not to put too fine a point on it, somebody who’s dead.

My Uncle Norman lived to be 106 but in this poem he’s 98, and I’m 12.

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I press this button, do I?

And then the little chap…

Oh, there he goes! Now then

This tortoisey fellow looks 

Up to no good to me…

Ha ha! That’s seen him off!

I want the mushroom, do I?

Look at that! He’s twice the size!

Rather like Alice in Wonderland,

Don’t you think?

What’s this chap’s name again?

Mario. Italian… 

Mario nel Paese delle Meraviglie…

Oh! Now look! he’s small again.

I think he’s had his chips.

Come on then: you can show me how

To play it properly…

In the kitchen

My mother tells your son

What an antisocial waste of time 

The damn thing is.

100peoplepoems six: Flight Attendant 

It’s Stranger Saturday – time for a poem about a random encounter with someone I don’t know. Today, a sonnet written on a flight from New Jersey to Toronto.

For more insight into the life of a flight attendant and just good anecdotage in general, I highly recommend the podcast Betty In The Sky With A Suitcase. However I do not believe that this was Betty.
Our carry-on was regulation size:

Nine inches by sixteen by twenty two.

But, flight attendant, you were very wise

And when our bag was overstuffed, you knew.
You smiled, and asked to put it in the hold.

We argued that our bag was small enough 

To stow without a hitch: we had been told!

You smiled again, and shrugged and called our bluff.
The suitcase would not fit. Not overhead 

I could not cram it underneath the seat, 

No matter what the website might have said

I dragged it back, acknowledging defeat.
You laughed at me, but still, you had a heart.

“Thank you”, you said, “for making me feel smart!”

#100people poems five: Paul

Family Friday: my family is as much my queer, aspie, geeky, mentally unstable, angry, leftie tribe as my legal and blood relations.

This is a poem from the point of view of my friend Paul. 

Who is family in all the above ways.

(Technically the poem could be said to be about the addressee as much as the speaker, but this happens so much that it’s hard to narrow it down.)

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I make eye contact with you, at once unpleasant
  An intensity of sensation

Like a close-to-the-face clenched fist.

But at least you – my allistic friend, 

My self defining ally – you must see 

The significance:

I never make eye contact.

And I am making eye contact.

Albeit fleeting, frowning, flickering…

I’m asking you for help.

And you know why.

You must know why.

You’ve known me for so long.

And yes, I know:

The woman spraying perfume

The man playing tinny music 

The stranger forcing me to “join the fun”

Are minor things for you.

But I also know

You know they are unbearable to me.

I know you know this.

But when I stare at you

Flick my panicked eyes toward the oblivious problem,

Whisper “…please?”

You look… politely blank.

Your smile becomes remote, as if to say 

“There is no problem here.

It’s only in your head.

Observe my calm demeanor 

And strive to emulate it for yourself.

We’ll both pretend you haven’t said a word.

Won’t that be for the best?”

To ask for help is painful

To ask, even to hint, and be refused?

I cannot put the torture into words.

I know: for you, it’s nothing.

And I know you know:

For me, it’s the whole world consumed in fire.

And through the flames,

You sit, modeling cheerful acquiescence

Just for me.

Because you’d rather see me burn alive.

Than raise your voice to help me ask for help.

#100people poems four: To the man who works at my local costa

It’s “thank you” Thursday – which is a name whose tweeness is making me cringe but appreciating people in your life is no bad thing. 

Also inspired in part by this.

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Sometimes our hair converges.

Other days, your Peacock Blue is growing out

As my Hot Purple still stains my scalp.

My shaved sides are a poor echo, though,

Of your glorious Mohawk.

I don’t think your manager likes our hair:

Your wild spikes fold down 

Like a hoopoe’s crest

When he’s on shift.

He looks at my crayola tangle with condescending pity

You catch my eye.

We smile behind his back.

#100peoplepoems three: Sevgi.

It is “where are they now?” Wednesday. Someone from my past whom I still think about.

Year seven, “nurture group”, in geography

Are doing “America” in PowerPoint.

Emad has found a picture of the flag.

Toni, a dollar sign, (and, I inform her,

 A photograph of downtown Tokyo.) 

Jamie (or Jimbob) superimposes 

A handgun on a cartoon hamburger.

And Waqaas, (unexpectedly political 

When not flicking the back of Piotr’s head), 

Pairs George W. Bush

With a frowny face from clipart.

“Bad man.” He tells me. “Very very bad”

Then I come to look at Sevgi’s work.

A new girl, late of Abbeydale Grange.

Before that, she has told me, Kurdistan.

She’s here because her English isn’t good. 

She wil not cope in mainstream, they’ve decided.

She talks me through her work.

Page one. The genocide of native people. The trail of tears. Thanksgiving. Wounded knee.

Page two, the first invasion of Iraq. 

Page three, the burning towers. The latest bombs.

And then, page four, it’s Condoleeza Rice.
And Sevgi looks at me, her wide brown eyes

Filled with her earnest anger.
“I do not like this Bush.

I have him here, I shake him with my hands. 

I shout his face

‘Why are you do these things?’

But he not know.

He white. He not know to be poor.

To have the persons say 

‘You woman.’ ‘You black.’ ‘You not can do’ 

I angry, but I know. He think is right.
But this. This Condoleeza 

She is black. 

And she is woman

And she hear bad things all in her life.

And still she do bad things.

She is the worse.”
Later in the library she tells me 

About her favourite book. 

She wants an English copy. 

But she only knows the name in Turkish.
“But it means

The person do bad thing

The person in bad trouble.”
I ask her for the author.

“Dostoyevsky”

The library at school has nothing for her.

She’s way beyond its reach.

#100peoplepoems two: Peter

It’s TV Tuesday so today my poem is about someone I’ve seen on TV.

I am a human rights activist.

I think you need to listen to me

Because I am a human rights activist.

And I have been a human rights activist

For many years.

I have spoken truth to power

For many years

I have championed the cause of gay rights 

For many years.

I challenged prominent homophobes

I made citizens arrests

On prominent homophobes

I threatened to expose the sex lives

Of prominent homophobes

Because I am a force for good

And I know what is right for the trans community

And I will not be no platformed

By the trans community 

And I won’t stand for this kind of treatment

By the trans community.

I am your ally.

I am your only hope.

I am a human rights activist.

And I think you should listen to me.

In a clear, blue sky,

A cloud sails past

Unconcerned.